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"Learning to give things up was pretty painful. I used to want to do __everything__ that seemed like a good idea and was doable.** I didn't know what I cared about, and so I was looking for lots and lots and lots of easy wins."

"Turns out that if something serves many purposes, it inevitably becomes a place full of anxiety"

"ADHD-y guilt comes with an escape hatch: "if you succeed, you were a good person all along". "I thought that if I returned with the finished task, all would be forgiven."

"Yes, I am selfish. Yes, I __do__ want to burn the world down just so that I can live forever. I will feel very bad doing it, and I will not do it, but I want to. (This is also called: eating the shadow.)"

"Yes, it does mean that you don't always get a fair chance to defend yourself. The image of you that I have created in some people's minds, might be disliked, unfairly, wrongly, and you can't do anything to change that. I will try to avoid this to some extent."

"Each thought-bucket I create serves as an attractor. By creating different buckets, I can control the direction in which I think."

"When I was in actual therapy, I used the same approach. I was proud of knowing what I felt, and wanted to impress therapists with not being like “those other clueless patients”.

"A different failure mode of public self-therapy is — when you stop caring about therapy after a while. When you turn your therapy account into a purely conversational account. When you try to show off how good you are at therapy. When you try to get more followers."