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"Unconditional love is possible only in childhood. Nobody else, ever, will love you unconditionally. This is what you have to mourn, so that you can move forward."

"Learning to give things up was pretty painful. I used to want to do __everything__ that seemed like a good idea and was doable.** I didn't know what I cared about, and so I was looking for lots and lots and lots of easy wins."

"Turns out that if something serves many purposes, it inevitably becomes a place full of anxiety"

"ADHD-y guilt comes with an escape hatch: "if you succeed, you were a good person all along". "I thought that if I returned with the finished task, all would be forgiven."

"Yes, I am selfish. Yes, I __do__ want to burn the world down just so that I can live forever. I will feel very bad doing it, and I will not do it, but I want to. (This is also called: eating the shadow.)"

"Yes, it does mean that you don't always get a fair chance to defend yourself. The image of you that I have created in some people's minds, might be disliked, unfairly, wrongly, and you can't do anything to change that. I will try to avoid this to some extent."

"Each thought-bucket I create serves as an attractor. By creating different buckets, I can control the direction in which I think."

"When I was in actual therapy, I used the same approach. I was proud of knowing what I felt, and wanted to impress therapists with not being like “those other clueless patients”.