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It's eventually picked up though. In our minds while we still see the spirit in a lifelong devotion to perfecting something menial we admit that we can't tell the difference. "I" would bore myself to literal death.

Indeed "I" does thrash wildly away from boredom the same way a cat avoids water. It is an intense dislike of the feeling of dying even if you know you're not literally dying.

What brings you closer to reality? Where you see subtleties no one had seen before. Mostly we're not aware of them. Everyday feels the same to us despite how everything is always changing massively.

E.g. our atoms relative to the sun and relative to the center of the galaxy are whisking away at incredible speeds through the universe yet we feel relatively static.

As aspects of reality, we are closest to reality when we're LEAST trying to BE. There's a natural tempo to Wu Wei. Too fast and you rush the tempo trying to be more than reality. Reality feels boring. Too slow and reality feels anxious.

people who "think fast" will feel bored by reality and try all sorts of things to spice things up. people who "think slow" see reality as threatening and try to seal themselves away from or learn from it in an "understand and respect thy enemy"

E.g. people who see the world as small vs people who see the world as big. In the former you have more capacity for creativity, games, and optimism but also ham fisted mistakes of idealistic low resolution thinking.

In the latter the world is seen in much higher definition but in a far more focused area. The world can feel like a source of endless mystery and wonder but also a dark and dangerous forest.

Ok I've looped back to the idea of seeing people/world as bigger or smaller. Idea circle completed.