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The more low level you go the more overwhelmed the conscious mind. It has to at a point give up and just go with the flow. Raw inputs can be like strange fruit or sea creature. They look and feel alien and disgusting. Raw emotions can feel like jumping into a mud pit.

The easiest way to maintain an easy identity is to draw a line and cut off portions of the company. E.g. if I’m making the world a better place I stop inspecting where my meat comes from, where my garbage goes, or how my iphone is made. It’s just easier that way.

I can also cut off large portions of my internal feelings. Sexuality is often a target. As are “demonic” feelings like murder, anger, etc... The “slicing” power of the hierarchy is used against the world and against the self, creating a violence infused reality.

Nature and yin aspects are touchstones to reality. Things that are more “alive”. (God being actual reality itself which isn’t an actual thing to be touched like a tree.)

When something is “alive” it staves off boredom. We don’t get bored of pets despite them being fairly predictable in how they react to most things.

Same for online games. We can play them over and over again despite them looking the same from an outside view.

From an internal view, the game is about improvement. It’s about bringing about aliveness in the self, not by adding via the environment. It can really improve certain things like reaction speed, teamwork, performing under pressure, etc..

but they can also be like drugs. You’re chasing an “aliveness” that the artificial reality won’t be able to provide. Heroin for example is technically a “peak experience”.