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    1.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

      We're born with a love shaped hole in our hearts. Genes shape it into a boy/girl shaped hole. Capitalism shapes it into a money shaped hole. Life shapes it into a religion shaped hole. Buddhism tells us there is no hole, only pain.

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    2.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

      Self-love takes responsibility for the surgery. Instead of an insane crowd-sourced surgery strategy, you realize that you're the only one qualified to operate on yourself. And like most wounds the process is relatively simple. Keep it clean, give it time, let it heal.

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    3.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

      A "hole" then is just an unhealed wound. Either because something is stuck in it, or it continues to be cut open in the exact same way.

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    4.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

      For most people, cutting yourself feels insane, but my guess is that the mental equivalent of cutting yourself over and over again is actually fairly prevalent.

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    5.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

      Walking on thorns and bleeding because shoes don't give you freedom and room to breathe isn't something that you can do as a 'beginner'.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyrTsBkoPy4 …

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    6.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

      But never taking off your shoes leaves you in a state of perpetual immaturity. E.g. the calloused fists of a master vs the soft hands holding a gun. The former has more 'spirit'.

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    7.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

      When you death grip a weapon (e.g. gun, sword, intelligence, beauty, money) the weapon becomes a part of you. It's a type of perpetual background tenseness that requires constant energy.

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       🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

      Perpetual energy expenditure is useful when it's something like breathing or your heartbeat. That's stuff your don't want to actively manage. It's not that useful when it's something like back-pain. You want to be able to relax that kind of stuff.

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        2.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          A "hole" is permanent just like permanent marker is. Nothing is really permanent because everything is just a bunch of atoms. Your consciousness or field-of-being is just a series of atomic moments.

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        3.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          Permanency is relative. Permanent marker is effectively permanent for the environments it's in. E.g. label on an item in a drawer. Time makes this a bit tricky since it's like sap. It locks moments permanently into history.

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        4.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          Childhood wounds for example can't be healed because you can't go back to the past. You can't heal a relationship with a parent if that parent is dead.

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        5.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          However.... when you think about the past or the future it's always the present reconstructing a model and replaying it. Every memory is a re-enactment with you as the director. You're putting on the same show, night after night, year after year. "The show must go on."

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        6.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          "If a tree falls in a forest and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound" If you have an idea in your head and you don't hire the actors, write the script, and put on the show. Is it really real? If there's no one there to "see" your pain, does it exist?

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        7.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          Most 'pain' is seeing your pain internally and repressing it from an audience. Or hiding the pain and displaying the alternative beautiful side instead.

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        8.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          Repression is like putting makeup over a scar day in and day out for years. (For many women the scar is 'i'm not pretty enough') Transmutation is like putting together a beautiful vase from a broken chandelier and saying "See, nothing was broken."

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        9.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          Pain-driven creative expression is like showing off your "shame" in a way. It's a desire to share your pain because you know the raw expression of it isn't socially accepted. "Come see this show, you'll feel terrible afterwards." "Er... no thanks..."

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        10.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          We adjust our shows to shove in a happy ending we don't really believe in to attract more views. Then we put on the show over and over again. We lose the plot because we never finished the plot.

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        11.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          Subconsciously there's a desire to "Start a new journey" precisely because the original journey never finished. You can't make money off a Neverending Story after all.

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        12.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          A purely protocol and transaction based society feels cold because everything wraps up at the moment of mutual agreement. There are no infinite threads. The only way to keep a thread going is to keep the drama going via perpetual conflict.

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        13.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          To "trust in god" via faith means to accept that the plan will be revealed to you as necessary. It's not an intentional marginalization or withholding of secrets. It's just how reality works. Reality can work in no other way but via moment by moment emergence into consciousness

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        14.  🐈‏ @a_yawning_cat 9 Sep 2020

          To want to jump ahead in a story means to copy-paste Paste into the Future. Pain creates future anxiety => drive for an artificial future by tessellating the same pain pattern => disconnection from reality => pain

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