🐈

Our original bullies are often our father or mother figure scolding us, making us fear for our existences. If you don't have a bully figure in your life, perhaps the people you have to make amends with are your parents or caretakers.

We have to be able to be friends with our parents. But this is *hard*. Society tells us we can't be friends with super evil people like racist people and our parents are like super racist. "Stay away from black people"

If there's a voice of satan it whispers only this "That is unforgivable." It shows you rapists, murderers, torturers, etc... It brings up genocide and torture.

Yet still.. if we traced through every individual's life and watched it from birth, we'd probably forgive everyone. We'd understand why. It's just that we don't care to. We can't. There's not enough energy to do so. Especially as we're busy with our own lives.

Forgive yourself. And if you can't because there's something you need to do? Then do it. That's the "work".

It means really digging into why you're ashamed of yourself. Was it b/c of that time you looked stupid in front the whole class? When you were the skinniest/fattest ignored by all the girls/guys?

What is the exact reason you sent your imaginary friend into purgatory and exile? If you can put into coherent thoughts exactly how you wounded yourself... you'll have reached the understanding necessary to forgive yourself.

This isn't something in the 'past' btw... If you're hurting yourself it's something you're doing right now in the present. E.g. the act of replaying the past is something done in the present as is the act of imagining the future.