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Being ashamed of someone's existence is the greatest insult we can have towards someone. Imagine telling this feeling to a friend. It'd end the friendship. Being ashamed of yourself is precisely why you're angry at yourself.

Your imaginary friend is actually your 'higher self'. That bully who tells you you're too fat and dumb is actually right. Except instead of being a great life coach, this life coach uses vitriol and punishment to 'encourage' you.

Everything this life coach tells you will be true in some way. (You can and should always be growing, always be living) Yet depending on how the message is delivered it can have hugely different effects.

You need to have the ability to befriend a bully. Most of us have never had this experience. We strive to be 'stronger' instead and bully the bully from a position of strength. Mentally we imagine the bully as a loser. Someone we could never befriend.

Our original bullies are often our father or mother figure scolding us, making us fear for our existences. If you don't have a bully figure in your life, perhaps the people you have to make amends with are your parents or caretakers.

We have to be able to be friends with our parents. But this is *hard*. Society tells us we can't be friends with super evil people like racist people and our parents are like super racist. "Stay away from black people"

If there's a voice of satan it whispers only this "That is unforgivable." It shows you rapists, murderers, torturers, etc... It brings up genocide and torture.

Yet still.. if we traced through every individual's life and watched it from birth, we'd probably forgive everyone. We'd understand why. It's just that we don't care to. We can't. There's not enough energy to do so. Especially as we're busy with our own lives.