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Maybe you’ll just try to Catch em All. Because that’s the biggest greatest goal of all. The one you can’t reach. The impossible goal you’ve set because you don’t want this journey to end. This is to enjoy life.

The obsessions with goals like ivy league schools or a lambo or w/e is what destroys life energy. The goals are supposed to be impossible because they prolong the journey.

When you choose long but possible goals like a mansion you demean the entire journey. You work for 30 years instead of living for 30 years because you though the other guy was insane. That guy who would never reach their goal.

You chose a big goal but not a great one. You were afraid to feel stupid. Or you were afraid to not get what you wanted. Because you childishly believed that getting what you want was the greatest thing. You chose power over divinity. You chose safety over mystery.

A symptom of this is a desire for immortality. A vampiric desire. You want greater and greater goals to satisfy your thirst but they’re never enough.

Because you can’t face the light. You’re afraid to fail in public. You can choose a truly impossible. You can’t have a dream. You can’t believe in yourself. And you can’t believe in others.

The vampire derives power from loneliness just as the werewolf derives power from the pack. The extremes of self and other are both toxic but powerful.

Games are new worlds with capped mystery. Even a game like Go has its mystery capped. Though it’s much more resilient than many board games, which get still after a few plays and need newness injection.