im very tired, and i really dont feel like getting into details, but its very possible that i could to be stepping down from making videos in the near future due to really out of the blue monetization / moderation decisions done by @TeamYouTube
Youtube has nuked any means of sustainability for creatives, so it's not hard to see why. Your wellbeing is more important, don't burn out because of lousy decisions made by people who don't appreciate hard work.