You're honestly a cool dude man. Being self isolated and distanced has made a ton of people think differently about themselves, so try your best to keep your head up and be positive about yourself!
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That's the thing I'm not trying my best. That's the main fault but yeah I'll try
Accepting that you have faults is already very mature and self acknolodgement is a rare quality to find in most people so you're definitely working in the right direction to whatever you want to achieve.