How's your experience of dissolving the framework been?
I can't even bring myself to respect any framework to begin with, so I wouldn't even know where to start... I'm sure it's easy to slip into when the results come, though - judging by every enlightened person I know.
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Really good point about the "I am insane" period before awakening. The potential to get lost there if going without a map is maybe even greater than post-awakening, because there is less clarity and one is more prone to delusion.
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And the potential for delusion doesn't stop post awakening! Someone with a sense of authority can easily get stuck in their own bullshit, as is evident by the plethora of ego trips / abuse stories among gurus.
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If anything, if you were an abusive prick before you got enlightened you'll probably be a *worse* abusive prick after, as your last sense of attachment to propriety fades away...
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Yeah, that seems to be exactly the case. Personality defects (and also harmless quirks and eccentricities) seem to become more pronounced post awakening.
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Yup. Turns out I have a big, unresolved anger problem, for example. I used to be good at suppressing it, which was its own kind of bad, but now I can't really do it anymore - and I'm not even finished yet!
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Have you tried finding healthier outlets for it? Videogames, for example. Letting the angry monkey be an angry monkey and tire itself out.
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Your conception of my anger is a few degrees too soft, I think.
I play a lot of games. Competitive ones. It's a thrill to compete, but it is nowhere close to depleting my anger on bad days.
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Strongly considered something like MMA, except all the practitioners I know are emotinoal trainwrecks and the culture seems *really* toxic.
Maybe I should learn to shoot? I don't know.
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What about archery?
It's a more physical discipline so you get that form of "Body Release", but you also have to be really focused to succeed.
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That's a great idea, actually!
There was an archery group in my hometown. No idea if there's one in the shithole I live in now, but there probably is.