Don't forget the "I am insane" period *before* awakening. Without a map, it's really easy to get stuck there. Potentially for the rest of your life.
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How's your experience of dissolving the framework been?
I can't even bring myself to respect any framework to begin with, so I wouldn't even know where to start... I'm sure it's easy to slip into when the results come, though - judging by every enlightened person I know.
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Really good point about the "I am insane" period before awakening. The potential to get lost there if going without a map is maybe even greater than post-awakening, because there is less clarity and one is more prone to delusion.
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And the potential for delusion doesn't stop post awakening! Someone with a sense of authority can easily get stuck in their own bullshit, as is evident by the plethora of ego trips / abuse stories among gurus.
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If anything, if you were an abusive prick before you got enlightened you'll probably be a *worse* abusive prick after, as your last sense of attachment to propriety fades away...
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Yeah, that seems to be exactly the case. Personality defects (and also harmless quirks and eccentricities) seem to become more pronounced post awakening.
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I have noticed that my personality (although mostly still in the liquified state) is much closer now to what it was when I was a pre-teen, before I really cared what people thought of me.
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Yeah. I've become a lot more assertive and simultaneously less sociable. More polite and less compassionate, too.
Etc.
All of which I'm completely OK with.
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My big five profile is... interesting. I am extraverted only inasmuch as I am very assertive, agreeable only inasmuch as I am very compassionate, utterly non-conscientious, almost off-the-charts in openness and also virtually not neurotic at all.
Self-reported, but...
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In other words, I either have one foot in each or am COMPLETELY off kilter in every single trait.