I'd be concerned myself if I didn't have the control I have over it.
I'm very empathetic, and it comes across in anger. But I can switch it off too.
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Not so fond of my smartass persona these days, but I know more than one person who's said the same.
Doesn't mean their bodies agreed.
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I know it's swimming against a helluva tide, but I feel something of an urgent duty to spend this near-future just relentlessly trying my best to contribute to pushing a much needed message. I'd feel increasingly anxious every day I took off! Catch 22.
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Once upon a time, people wrote those ideas into books. Gave them time off from the toss and turn, without dulling their edge.
Perhaps?
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I have 100k rambling words, non-fiction stream of consciousness, lready, but it's an editing nightmare and already outdated.
Also about 40k words of a fiction trilogy. But then neoliberalism chose to implode & I got distracted.
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I'm just not suited. I have manic periods of productivity, then ditch it.
It's a curse and a blessing. I attribute that to my coming to complexity theory. I went broad and shallow, never boxed in. So..
I prefer living documents.
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That's fine, but you don't have to publish. The idea is just to keep the work up without getting too engaged in the unfolding disaster.
But don't take it from me. I am terrible at that.
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haha, it's good advice. I can still be productive, but do more writing, less getting angry at adverts and such like lol.
Writing long-form, stream-of-consciousness, is somewhat meditative for me
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It got truly bizarre in India writing that 100k in two weeks. At some points I was typing as I was thinking, and I would start a sentence not knowing where it was going to finish, only to see a key insight appear lol.
It was an uncanny kind of feeling. If one word.. flow?
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I have an annoying block in that I can tweet 50 tweets in an hour if I want, without thinking, but I can't bring myself to finish two pages if I'm not working very hard.
Most of the time, anyway.
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If I start something, I'll sit there and write for 16 hours and finish it.
But it happens so infrequently. Maybe three times in the last 6 months?
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It's funny, because it reminded me of playing Guitar Hero during those stretches where it feels like your fingers are working independently.
I'd like to think that game had a noticeably beneficial by-product for many kids in that regard.