So seems I figured out the issue with the @cuttingmachine_ exercises: I just needed to do twice as much in a day.
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why 'oh god'? 😂 You must have boshed out more than an hour a day to get where you got to?
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Yes, but I pushed when I was stable, not when things were chaotic!
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Hey, but things are stable right now.
Stable income, stable(ish) family situation, plenty of free time.
Was much worse recently, though.
At the moment I'm only looking after myself and 30h of remote work a week, so it seems like the best possible time to do a strong push.
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Absent other people, my mind has been almost completely quiet for the last year or so.
Interactions trigger lots of messy thoughts, though.
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