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I'm becoming pretty good at modulating happiness on demand. Didn't dare use it much, tiring, but I'm learning lower turning.

It's odd, my meditation ability right now is at multi-year lows, but the benefits of previous awakenings are strong and strengthening.

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Are you having the same experience as me, perhaps? Sitting feels excruciating, but awareness is flexible.

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I can pretty much switch attentional modes on demand now, if I put my mind to it. Takes just enough effort to not be automatic.