This is most certainly not how meditation is generally advertised, but it's what happens when you have strong, unresolved issues.
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Another, more surprising effect, is that most forms of fear people feel seem to be regulatory. It's there to inhibit "bad" behaviour.
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Once those inhibitions (the ones that are clearly phony and counter-productive) start to break down, there is a whole lot less fear.
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I feel sadness, anger and other emotions with far deeper intensity and more often than I remember doing before, but I'm almost never scared.
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Awakenings tend to be uneven. I didn't get an awakening around anger until 2 years after my 1st awakening & even after it took time.
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I suspect anger is one of the most difficult ones, along with just straight up sadness/pain. It's most commonly suppressed by family/school.
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Cultivation does get to a lot of this stuff, in time. At the same time, this stuff is a hindrance & IF it can be dealt with w/therapy, good
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If there is too much stuff it can slow down or halt cultivation progress. If you're past 1st awakening (you are) only slow
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also, cultivation mostly works on such things IF they are a problem to you. If they aren't, it doesn't.
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Things speeding up alarmingly now, but not having anything resembling the ability to steer it.
Everyone says lovingkindness, so...
(Not that "steering it" per se seems necessary, but I'd rather not have a complete breakdown on the way if it can be helped.)
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detachment and lovingkindness, yes. It will all pass, none of it is you, you're just witnessing it.