Spent so many months wrapped up in complete and utter bullshit, I didn't realize my baseline neuroticism had dropped massively.
Conversation
Replying to
In the absence of immediate stressors (and I now avoid taking on any that I don't have to), mind is cool, relaxed, focused.
1
Replying to
Being alive, generally pleasant. This was not always the case.
Staying away from destructive habits has helped a lot as well.
2
Replying to
The question now becomes 'what now?'
Neuroticism forces a hectic, self-defeating pace. Without it, so much time frees up.
What now?
Replying to
After I cut out Facebook, gaming, other self fuelling time wasters (I Twitter mostly on the go), thought chatter trickled to near-zero.
Replying to
Consciousness takes on a cathedral vastness; what thoughts are there echo and percolate off distant walls.
This must its have uses.
3
Replying to
For most of my life I've known how to attune myself to other people's feelings by freeing up space taken by my own. Empathy magnifies.
1
Replying to
In the space left by my greyed-out emotions, I can play host to others, let their needs & interests become my own - at least partially.
1
Replying to
Intuition tells me there must be some similar use for a quiet mind; space to hold foreign ideas without dissonance, perhaps?
I don't know.
1