First things first, some self-indulgent stuff. I am younger than people tend to assume. I don't necessarily give that impression, but I am.
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In person people overshoot, often by about 5 years or so. Online, anywhere from 10-20 is normal. This is important in terms of perspective.
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This isn't something I'm proud of or sad about, but it tends to skew people's perceptions in unfavorable ways.
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I write about meditation because I know it. I write about other stuff because I feel like it. But most of the things I know are... weird.
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I've been hesitant to write about new things because I feel like my meek perspective on Western magick might not be what the world needs.
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But for the past year, almost all my energy has gone into figuring out the mechanisms of how to be a father and entrepreneur, which is hard.
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In the more harrowing moments, that's opened up a wide range of topics I'd like to write more about, but the problem is no time for research
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The conversion rate on personal energy when you are embroiled in two simultaneous situations you don't know how to handle is very poor.
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Or put more bluntly, it's fucking difficult to focus on other things when your day-to-day is really difficult already.
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I'm suffering lapses in my personal health, lapses in my meditation practice, lapses in my sleep, my reading and just about everything else.
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But sadly I'm still relatively lucky by the scale of most people alive and my age in the west. I don't live in my parents' basement.
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When you put yourself under the lupe by subjecting yourself to trials you don't know if you can handle or not, the results are often erratic
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One month your output is tremendous and you feel on top of the world, the next some new difficulty plunges you into burnout and depression.
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