For cognitive content, I have a lot of weird hyper/hypofunctions intermixed.
I have a lot of savantisms, areas where I pick stuff up effortlessly and develop unusual skills. I'm constantly bridging topics and seem to have massive parallel processing, even for a human.
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At the same time, deep focus on any one thing is almost impossible and I have a lot of problems with modelling anything I don't have a natural feel for.
It's very difficult to learn by rote, for me. I'm teflon for anything I can't play with, even when I really want to learn.
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Sometimes I come back to something that was "impossible" and find that it's suddenly effortless, to the point that I'm like 2+ standard deviations above normal ability.
(This in areas where I used to be totally clueless, often very recently, despite concerted effort.)
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I feel like my thought processes are as likely to overfit and lead me into some complete nonsense as they are to give me some completely novel insights from very low information density.
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I don't put *too* much stock in IQ, but it's probably also worth mentioning that I'm 4 standard deviations above norm in some areas, and about average in others.
I often seem like a moron/genius to myself in the context of my own baseline cognitive effectiveness.
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That's about it for cognition. Now some personal stuff I didn't know where to throw in.
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I am hopelessly grandiose a lot of the time (as you can see). What's less obvious to others, is I'm also cripplingly insecure and mistrustful of myself.
I second guess everything, relentlessly, and can't seem to trust myself, ever, except in some areas where I ONLY trust myself.
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I have a very weird tendency towards saviour complex-ish levels of self-sacrifice. I make choices that are very bad for me, provided the benefit to others seems high/I "should".
This has gotten me into trouble 100s of times, and is why I currently have lots of personal problems.
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It's like a switch goes off and I become a (very nice) sociopath.
Nothing is taken personally, I have 0 emotional contagion (can still understand others, even better than usually), and I am just focused on the problem while staying completely detached.
It's sort of eerie.
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I think that's all. That's the full list of things I can remember thinking "this doesn't seem normal" about.
Did you recall this list from memory (aided by paper notes)? Do you think of these things relatively often, about how you're different in these ways?
Do you feel nobody understands?
Is this eerie or am I projecting :P
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I remembered all of this and mostly did the note-taking to prime myself/check if I'd missed something before moving on to the next section.
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