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Let's start with social stuff. I'm fairly socially inhibited. Have a lot of anxiety traits. Hyperreliant on verbal ability. Cause of anxiety: I have trouble with social fluency. I understand social rules implicitly, but get overwhelmed by density of info/second guess a lot.
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This may be partly due to upbringing, as I've been making major improvements in these areas over the last years and don't seem to have base-level issues with functioning. Apart from the lack of socio-emotional latent inhibition. I have to look away from faces when talking, e.g.
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When I'm not anxious, I tend to be hyperextroverted to the point of being a nuisance to people who can't deal with high energy. I'm talkative, intense, very larger than life, sort of effortlessly/unintentionally taking up space. I can turn this off, but it *wants* to be on.
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That's mostly it for explicitly social stuff. With empathy, I am ridiculously sensitive to sensory inputs and information about people in my environment, and constantly modelling people intuitively. I wasn't even aware of this until earlier in my 20s, but I have always done it.
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I am so socially hypersensitive that I have a lot of experiences that seem/are pre-cognitive wrt. others. I pick up changes in people and notice problems weeks in advance of attendant behaviors. Sometimes these come in dreams. It's incredibly hard to lie to me, if I know you.
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At the same time, deep focus on any one thing is almost impossible and I have a lot of problems with modelling anything I don't have a natural feel for. It's very difficult to learn by rote, for me. I'm teflon for anything I can't play with, even when I really want to learn.
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Sometimes I come back to something that was "impossible" and find that it's suddenly effortless, to the point that I'm like 2+ standard deviations above normal ability. (This in areas where I used to be totally clueless, often very recently, despite concerted effort.)
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