Two things that seem simultaneously true to me:
Thinking about and intellectualizing your plans is a trap, breeds phantasy and no followup.
Getting to the point where you carry out plans that you are not currently capable of is ephemeral and not always about deliverables.
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I have lots of things that I "just" have to do, but in between there is a wilderness of freeing up and channeling rogue energy and attention.
Actually exploring this wilderness is different than just waving a hand apathetically and saying "ah, but the journey is long", though.
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I experienced a version of this journey while doing , tho I’m not sure what I’d actually say about it. You’re not even the same person as you progress through it. Pretty trippy stuff
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Honestly, at this point I feel like two people inhabiting one body.
It's pretty uncanny.
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just two? (Stuffs ancient eldritch god into the cupboard)
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Yeah, just two.
The other one is sort of frightening, though.