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As usual when I make a lot of plans for a year, I drop them all until the pieces come together to form one huge conqueror worm of a metanarrative.

Carrying a simple plan through to fruition? Nah. Slowly causing total mayhem to erupt in all my established patterns, until they implode? Sure.

It's like you have three layers: 1) Plans 2) Self-sabotage 3) Self-sabotage-sabotage

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The latter of which is less 'sabotage', more an act of war.

Feeling like this might be the year that cycle finally breaks, for Reasons, but I'm wondering exactly how load-bearing it's been.