2020 goals:
Pick a second class for ze ol' dual class.
So many options, so little time...
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Got the mystic/weirdo/completationist/whatever specialization down to the point where progression seems more a matter of course, provided some minimum.
But this is somewhere between nigh-on and totally worthless in the wider world. And worthlessness don't sell.
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I did enough meditation that my mind shattered into a billion fragments of scintillating glass, and my personal trajectory seems set down, down, Down.
It's all going to keep getting weirder from here. Now, always and forever. Even when I try to escape, I can't.
Hope this helps.
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hmmmmmm there's this recent thing in my mind where learning/getting better seems like The Only Way Things Obviously Are And How Could I Ever Have Thought Anything Else and I was wondering if it were the same (bc if so recent uptrend in meditation time would have explained it)
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I am talking more about deepening into a second specialism. I am only credibly an expert on iterative contemplative practice and living weirdly.
(Also at muddling through any and all circumstances, but that's more of a meta-capacity.)
This affords me some Strange powers, but...
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... in the same sense as 'muddling through', they are not much good on their own, and need some other vector along which to force multiply.
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Meditation has turned me into something vaguely monstrous.
Where before I was a perpetually timid creature, I now breathe fear and exhale joy.
It's given me so much freedom on a personal level, I'm struggling to do enough with it.
I have no place to stand, but no leverage.
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It's very easy to turn this sort of raw, nonspecific emotio-cognitive potency into cult followings etc., but this seems Dumb.
And when I look at my general capabilities with a touch of honesty, I realize I have few real options that aren't Dumb or Lame.
Need to diversify.
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modelling what others value has been v useful in opening new vistas here for me
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