2020 goals:
Pick a second class for ze ol' dual class.
So many options, so little time...
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Got the mystic/weirdo/completationist/whatever specialization down to the point where progression seems more a matter of course, provided some minimum.
But this is somewhere between nigh-on and totally worthless in the wider world. And worthlessness don't sell.
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I did enough meditation that my mind shattered into a billion fragments of scintillating glass, and my personal trajectory seems set down, down, Down.
It's all going to keep getting weirder from here. Now, always and forever. Even when I try to escape, I can't.
Hope this helps.
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hmmmmmm there's this recent thing in my mind where learning/getting better seems like The Only Way Things Obviously Are And How Could I Ever Have Thought Anything Else and I was wondering if it were the same (bc if so recent uptrend in meditation time would have explained it)
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I am talking more about deepening into a second specialism. I am only credibly an expert on iterative contemplative practice and living weirdly.
(Also at muddling through any and all circumstances, but that's more of a meta-capacity.)
This affords me some Strange powers, but...
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... in the same sense as 'muddling through', they are not much good on their own, and need some other vector along which to force multiply.
Meditation has turned me into something vaguely monstrous.
Where before I was a perpetually timid creature, I now breathe fear and exhale joy.
It's given me so much freedom on a personal level, I'm struggling to do enough with it.
I have no place to stand, but no leverage.
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It's very easy to turn this sort of raw, nonspecific emotio-cognitive potency into cult followings etc., but this seems Dumb.
And when I look at my general capabilities with a touch of honesty, I realize I have few real options that aren't Dumb or Lame.
Need to diversify.
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