Feel really, really spent. Need to find time for a lot more movement and some strength training.
My overall level of emotional energy is very rapidly exceeding the body's ability to keep up. Too used to lethargy.
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Really strange to go from struggling to sustain effort to having a constantly growing will to do more.
The more I do, the more I want to do more. And it's unbelievably fun, but very taxing.
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Have you started doing something differently? I could really use a bit more of this.
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I just let that happen for a while, and I realized I could absorb myself totally in some activities.
Body now starts getting powerful urges to stretch, flex/relax muscles, make odd, sinuous movements seemingly at random.
Then gradually metta, a practice that has never worked well for me before, starts working.
I am able to produce this powerful sensation of love in the body. It often arises spontaneously, especially when listening to Lana Del Rey?!?
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Love sensations turn inwards. I started having flashbacks. Times I was hurt, neglected, traumatized in some way. These feelings dissolve into the love.
Around this time, I develop a tendency to start dancing at random. Dancing and singing. Deep joy fills me when I do this.
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