Flipping constantly between discursive thought, blissfully embodied, present moment awareness and disturbing bouts of weird gnosis.
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Pivoting back to DIY renditions of LHP practices is the best/worst decision I've made in a while.
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On the one hand, there is enough energy in my system now to potentially sustain any number of paranoid delusions.
On the other hand, it's FUN!
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Maybe a more directed energy could do, just following one or a couple paranoid delusions?
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Not really about following, or generating, anything at all. It's just that the energetic load is heavy enough to facilitate almost anything.
Think as in manic delusions.
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The fact that a lot of the stuff that comes through is useful or demonstrably true makes the whole thing dangerously seductive.
But that is the Point of doing it this way. The risk is core to the process.
I allow some of those things to arise without opposition, but the feedback load is still too heavy for my body.
Get hangovers. Bad ones.
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I know what you mean, I had something similar going on for a couple months last year, then the energy fell the other way. I couldn't control it well enough and was to delusional. Hope you're experience is different enough to be able to stay balanced in the energy.
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I first did these practices shortly after starting out. Found them very destabilising.
Have about a decade of experience since then. Feels a lot easier to flow with and around now than it did then.
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