There's something people often come up against when practicing what Theravadan Buddhists call insight meditation (vipassana).
And that something (well, one of those somethings) is embodied trauma.
If you practice in a sort of strong vipassana style, where you are *not supposed to dig*, this can come up as a lot of disjointed blips of discomfort, confusion, pain, sadness, etc.
If you do a lot of vipassana, or pry into what's there, it can become very destabilising
You can have sudden outpourings of inappropriate emotion (connected to past, not present), impulsive behaviour, depression triggers, sudden overwhelming awareness of feelings...
A lot of this seems to be milder versions of what people with NPD or BPD struggle with all the time - raw, unprocessed aspects of self (as in: feeling, thought, etc.) that are loose, free-floating.
I mean, in many ways, this disintegrative process is *the point* of the practice.
1
This Tweet was deleted by the Tweet author. Learn more
This Tweet was deleted by the Tweet author. Learn more
I don't think this framing works for every scale, but it may be helpful to think of narcissism as a combination of pain, obfuscation and externalizing.
In other words, acedia.
And honesty, reflection, self-awareness, or indeed soliciting criticism, as ways to reject narcissism.
So I think Visa is correct - opening yourself fully to others, lots of others, in some area, is potentially a form of anti-narcissism in that area.
But... how to separate the court trappings of honesty from the real deal?