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cessation is often a blanking out. I think you pushed very hard on concentration accomplishments and didn't get permanent state changes. Also, often it takes more than one awakening + work to pound in a conditioning. Took me 3 years to get anger to mostly non-binding.

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Ian Welsh

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Jan 12, 2019

sounds like you are part way in the process and not stuck in a good place. It's generally acknowledged that some parts of the process are shit and that you can get stuck there for long periods.

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Ian Welsh

@iwelsh

Jan 12, 2019

there are different insights, obtained thru different means. Getting stuck, however, seems common in meditative processes.

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Ian Welsh

@iwelsh

Jan 12, 2019

I've mentioned that fact quite a few times.

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Ian Welsh

@iwelsh

Jan 12, 2019

however, awakening is largely a matter of "letting go". When I let go of thinking of my personality as me, for example (a genuine awakening) it opened up the possibility for a lot of personality change, made me tons happier, etc...