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In terms of your the way you see, hear, taste, etc...

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Hmm, well, there is a lot of stuff that is probably too weird for Twitter, at least until I figure out an elegant way to describe it without sounding nuts :) My sense of self and my sense of the world are not separate. I experience it all as one.

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The only thing I remotely feel certain about is that I am. Everything else is in a permanent state of uncertainty, including whatever this "I" might be. And this is not just philosophical musings, this is my actual experience of daily life.

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Would you care to talk about the emotional aspect of that on here? I.e. how labile/fluid do your feelings seem compared with before? Any pleasant/unpleasant by-products?

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Yeah, very fluid. I experience emotions a lot more in the body rather than the head comparing to before. Sometimes it gets very intense or even painful, but that may change as I get used to it.

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Pleasant: everything feels so full of awe and wonder and infinite possibility, like a near constant religious experience. The body feels really good most of the time (unlike before). Unpleasant: regular emotions sometimes cause physical pain.

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Thanks a lot! OK, last question: before the change took, did you have sort ot temporary transitions (seconds, minutes, days, hours) where this awe was clearly felt and everything was sort of weird and hyperlucid? If yes, do you know how long before they started?

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Yeah, I was kind of in and out of the state for a while, maybe a year and a half? It wasn't a sudden switch. Minutes/hours at first, then more frequent, then longer periods of nonduality, which I would sometimes get knocked out of, to now where I'm there pretty much all the time.

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It's really weird to be in such a state of unity, and still have maladaptive conditioning. I suspect a lot of it will burn off sooner than later though, as a bunch already has.