This year has reaffirmed my desire to *actually do useful things*, as opposed to just getting by.
It's been a good year.
Shame about the planet, tho.
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It's surprising how little it takes to break a person's will. You submit to learned helplessness sooner than you might think.
But, given the right circumstances, it's also surprisingly easy to change.
Those "right circumstances" will never reach some people, though. Shame.
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In many ways, getting by was already a victory. I was a real mess, not long ago.
I still have the same synapses, somewhere within reach. I can remember who I was, what my priorities were.
But that guy seems a bit absurd, now. A bit... unreal. Big cognitive dissonance.
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It's something I wish upon everyone who is as unhappy I was: a slow estrangement from that person, those circumstances, that way of being.
But given how shitty we've made the world, a lot of people are never going to get that.
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And from thence flows the desire to do more than just get by. I got lucky. Most people don't.
There is much to do, and not much time to do it.
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Not saying I need to do something massively impactful. Just tired of not looking past my own nose too much, and of BS jobs.
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