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Paraphrasing: "The Q4 2010 earnings call is going to happen at 16:00 in our time zone, and we will be having an all-hands meeting in the kitchen at 15:00 to discuss what it means for the company" - cue the record-scratch sound effect.

You could almost see the e-mail landing in peoples' inboxes, and how often people checked said inboxes, based on how the wave of low-grade panic swept through the studio. Some people became obviously emotionally numb. Some cracked gallows-humor jokes.

Some, like me, searched high and low for any of the studio executives to try to get a straight answer as to what was going on, only to find that they were all conspicuously absent. Finally, I was able to find one of the Bala brothers - the founders of VV - wandering the halls.

"Guha," I said, "I'm freaking out. Just give me a straight answer: Am I still going to have a job tomorrow?" He sighed, replying, "Ryan, you know I can't answer that. That information could be considered insider trading." At that point I knew what was going down: The head count.

It would've revealed nothing about the earnings call to say that people would still be employed the next day - but it would be obvious, were a layoff disclosed. He continued, "But if you're feeling panicky, feel free to go take lunch early. Just be back before the earnings call."

I went back to my desk to fire off a brief e-mail to HR, asking them to please at least come and get me before the meeting to tell me what's going on, because being on the autism spectrum, I don't do well with a lack of information and dread looming over my head.

I subsequently went outside to get a breath of fresh air before heading to lunch, and to perhaps find someone with whom to commiserate. The man of the hour happened to be the lead programmer of the two most recent iterations of the Wii SKU of GH, a most excellent dude named Eric.

A wonderful guy, he bucked the trend at VV that programmers needed to be micromanaged, and instead simply treated us all with respect. He let us do our jobs, confident that we'd been hired for a reason, and would do the right thing without being asked, "How's your tasks going?"

As it happened, this made him persona non grata among VV management, who wanted him to take a "more active" stance with the programmers beneath him. It got worse when the two iterations of Guitar Hero Wii that he oversaw went the smoothest, technically, of all of them.

I remember asking him what he thought would happen, and him opining to the effect of, "I can't imagine they're going to lay people off or shut the studio down. The execs just looked at Phoenix last month and were stoked!" He always did stay positive in the face of adversity.

I then drove home to my roomies, one of whom was a QA tester who had been laid off the previous month, and one of whom was a senior designer who had been laid off the previous September in a hush-hush layoff of about seven people. I told them what I suspected was going down.

We then hopped in my car, drove to a local diner where we had enjoyed numerous lunches before when we all still worked at VV, and tried our best to forget about the fact that soon, the last one of us would be out of a job, too.

Returning to the office shortly before 15:00, I sat at my desk and simply shuffled code around until the head of HR came and got me. When I saw the Development Director sitting there in her office as I walked in, I pretty much knew that I was right.

500 people lost their jobs that day across the entire ATVI corporate structure. Eric. Me. 498 other people. About 50 folks at VV itself, a third of the staff at the time.

Ultimately, there isn't much else to say. We all picked ourselves up, brushed ourselves off, and moved forward. @1stPlayable Productions, a smaller game studio a few miles north of VV in Troy, NY, hired a number of the ex-VV folks. Other people moved over to Harmonix.

Eric got a job at Rockstar North, where he worked on an obscure little title called GTA V. I used it as an opportunity to help start the indie studio my roommates and I talked about for years, Bat Country. It failed hard - none of us had any business sense - but we learned a lot.

I can conclude this story on a lighter note. After the layoff, my QA friend still had a video on his phone: An upbeat moment, when we had a ton of controllers that were incompatible with the retail game, and needed to be destroyed so the company could write them off on taxes.

Two codas to the story: First, I must make it ABDUNDANTLY clear that I hold no ill will and have no bad memories whatsoever towards either Vicarious Visions or the Brothers Bala. In particular, Karthik and Guha did their best to shield us from the capricious whims of ATVI execs.