A Moogle  🏳️‍🌈 💻 🎮 🎶 🇸🇪

I was a nightmare to work with. Probably still am, and everyone is just too polite. I thought I was god's gift to coders, when in reality I'm just an average coder at best. Constant run-ins with my line managers at previous jobs about my behavior.

I was fired from my first job at @EA, when after my fingers were worked to the bone from months upon months of endless crunch on Superman Returns, I finally had one too many angry run-ins with coworkers. My pleas that they had failed to accommodate my autism fell on deaf ears.

I at least lasted long enough to be laid off from my job at @Activision after they laid off 500 people upon the cancellation of the Hero business unit, including a third of the staff at @VvisionsStudio at the time. Thus began both the best and worst year of my life, 2011.

I lost track of the number of times I stood on a chair, noose tied, trying to will myself to just kick it out from under me. To this day I'm still unsure whether or not I made the right decision to keep going.

I'm entirely dependent on my medication. Even slight reduction causes dramatic effects. I was nearly fired two weeks into working at Mojang when I flew off the handle due to being on a third of my usual medication, and not having the self-help skills to have found a doctor yet.

I've lost track of the number of friends that I've lost over the years due to an inability to relate on a fundamental level, all thanks to having lost the genetic lottery.

My history of Internet forum usage is riddled with temporary and permanent bans due to my learned assumption that anyone being remotely negative is an inherently bad actor and simply wants to re-victimize me once again.

I tried enrolling in the Swedish mental health system to get treatment for autism, and the ADHD I've suspected I've had all my life. But I was self-medicating with liquor, and I was instead forwarded to addiction treatment. I have to be blood-tested biweekly for 3 months.