This was something I had to come to terms with. I converted in 15 months ago. Prior to that I’d been asking why I should with the Pope’s reported behaviors. My wife’s (eventual) godfather asked me, “If Christ commanded you to do these things, what does it matter who’s Pope?”
You’re either a member of the Church or you’re not. You either have faith that Christ manages his Church according to his schedule, or you don’t.