the fucked up thing is that i can never stop spending time. there are no free actions. thinking about what to do is itself an action that consumes time. i need a pause button for reality so bad and i genuinely hate that i don’t have one
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so i really think it's not about time
like i have many times wished for a pause button but i think it's a confused wish
it's like, "i am conflicted about what i'm doing right now" & imagining solving it by conjuring "extra time" as if that would resolve the conflict
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there is definitely a feeling of conflict yes. i think extra time *would* resolve the conflict! there are things i know to do that would work but they all *cost time*
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have you tried aggressively timemaxxing?
like cancel all non-critical appointments, get everything delivered, pay for wash&fold pick up laundry, hire someone to clean up your living space, etc etc
possibly you could get a couple extra hours per day & see if it helps?
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i am wondering if this desire reduces simply to “i wish there were more days in my life” or if instead it reduces to “i wish the process by which my mind adapts to new information were faster”
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or a slight reformulation of the latter: “i wish i could use my deliberate, calculating mind for all decisions, not just the ones i deem worthy of careful thought... i wish intuition were redundant”
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In what sense would the time be extra if everyone got it? If you personally want more time to get ahead of them in comparison, that can be investigated?
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it’s not to get ahead of other people, it’s to delay the sun and my calendar. i want to not feel like i’m running out of daylight hours or night hours before the next scheduled activity
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