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Mikael Brockman 🥸
@meekaale
also interesting that one of the main cutting edge comprehensive treatments for this trauma is the ideal parent figure protocol which involves learning to feel as if in the presence of a perfectly loving and forgiving nourishing gestalt
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bosco
@selentelechia
I was praying the other day and was like "I'm not sure if I'm talking to a tulpa, doing IPF, or if you're real. what if 'divinely loving god' is just a neat hack a bunch of cultures have figured out to compensate for lacking important interpersonal nutrients"
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bosco
@selentelechia
and god/whatever was like "wow that would be a really convenient thing for humans to have, wonder how they figured that out! 😇" ...my god is a bit of an asshole 😅
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bosco
@selentelechia
other excerpts: "well I sure feel a perfectly loving presence now, but how do I stop forgetting how to get back here, how do I build a path?" god: "wtf do you think ritual is"
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bosco
@selentelechia
most of my prayers end with something like "thanks for chatting, I still don't know if you're real, you're kind of a dick and I'm going to grill you for an explanation for [thing from my childhood faith] later. jerk. love you. bye. jerk."
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nvpkp
@nvpkp
i wonder if it's bc it's the god dude. i talk to my "mom", who is an amalgamation of the women who have ~saved me in one way or another in my life. no baggage there. closer to the ideal parent figure than to a god figure but idk idk
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bosco
@selentelechia
it's the only thing that works for me when I try IPF. I try parents, I try grandparents, but they always eventually turn into This Fucking Guy I asked why, once, and he said "because this is the Type of Guy you can understand"
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