i have a lot of resistance to metta / loving-kindness practices, or any kind of deliberate cultivation of positive emotion, and i think a lot of it has to do with feeling like as a kid i was constantly pressured into pretending i was happier and more satisfied than i was
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oof that imperative to enjoy tho
and then for me i’ve had to slowly go back to positive emotion too after becoming very comfortable with negative emotions!

