so i'd been struggling for a long time with two parts of me that had totally conflicting views towards a person in my life. love vs hate. i kept feeling like i had to debate myself out of the hate feeling, otherwise i wasn't "a good spiritual girl" or w/e . but the more i tried โ
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to reason that part out of me, the more it bubbled under the surface, asserting itself at unexpected times.
so i finally said "you know what? what if i don't HAVE to choose. what if i can just have BOTH those feelings, without assuming that makes me a 'bad person'!" โ
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so then i journaled from both those parts of me, with complete honesty and no self judgment whatsoever.
and with that alone, i started to get breakthrough purifications. energies that had felt stuck for so long, started shifting majorly!!! ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ โ
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by the time i finished work (i journal, meditate and do energy work during my break times๐), i felt SO unburdened and ridiculously LIGHT.
one of my sensei friends drove me home and as i rode in the passenger seat, the sun was shining bright, approaching sunset, โ
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illuminating the silvery-gold edges of the clouds, in the beautiful vast baby blue sky. and i started to feel one with all of it, and just, so awesome. my consciousness felt inseparable from that sacred beauty ๐ฅฒ๐ค๐ โ
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chillin at home now and i'm still feeling awesome and amazing and great (*ยดโฝ๏ฝ*) bubbly feelings in the heart, and still getting spontaneous purifications, which tells me that there was a TON of tension (suppressed energy) stored up around this issue! โ
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maybe so much of the tension we hold really IS simply in the struggle to feel different than we truly feel :O despite how noble that struggle might initially appear to be!!! :O
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