I think I've been avoiding discussing it in detail for a lot of reasons
mostly bc I didn't want to invite commentary while I was raw and vulnerable and trying to figure out how to do something I've never done before
but also because I didn't connect the dots until quite recently, when (I think) my hormonal cycle started creeping back towards normalcy and I could directly compare my pregnancy/postpartum state(s) to my "normal" state
but yeah, I didn't want anyone else's opinions directed at me about what I should or shouldn't be doing
and "things people say online" actually affect me a great deal
for one, "online" is where I've cultivated 80% of the most meaningful relationships of my life