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· Dec 22, 2021

so one of the several things i tried was this: i noticed that i wasn't really paying attention to the video games i was using to self-soothe. so, even though it felt extremely self-indulgent and kinda cringe, i tried enjoying them more on purpose

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me [feeling pleased about a cool thing i did with a client]: big brain strats over here. big... big heart strats?

this thing about being called a chad by your grandma feels related. there's probably a whole thing here about like "how would you like an ideal parent to congratulate you" or "how would you like an ideal older sibling to congratulate you"

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snav

@qorprate

· Jan 6

Replying to @QiaochuYuan

getting close

Psychocosm, but my friends call me Matt

i guess i am just very sensitive to the implied relationship in whatever kind of congratulations. the self-conditioning stuff the rationalists tried to do felt like a boss-employee relationship which is *not* the kind of relationship i wanted or want to have with myself

@Buddh_ish

Damn, “a boss-employee relationship with oneself” absolutely nails a lot of the subtle dimensions of discomfort I have w rationalism

brainlet

@magicianbrain

what about... an elephant and elephant-rider relationship

the thing that always really got my goat about the elephant-rider stuff is everyone else seemed to feel like they were the rider and i was extremely convinced that everything that was most real and worth preserving about me was in the elephant

Lucy Keer

@drossbucket

I remember which is in character for an elephant I guess lesswrong.com/posts/NJL5FYe6

omg i wrote a top-level post 😅 aaaaah

Lucy Keer

@drossbucket

Haha I didn't actually remember that either until I got there. sorry for going digging through old stuff!