People think I'm trolling a lot but I'm actually just near autistically unaware of normal behavior sometimes but too high functioning so it's assumed intentional. Most of my personality is geared around signaling and compensating for this.
it's legitimately - stay with me a minute here, i mean this - it's legitimately fucked up how i am simultaneously very smart and a huge dumbass, and i actually don't know how to integrate both of those into a coherent understanding of myself as a person
I think everyone has Dumbass parts, but I think some people are very smart in rare areas. depending on context, this can make you appear Very Smart to friends and family, which you internalize. then when you notice the Dumbass parts, they seem incongruous?
e.g. my wife has often seen me understand things that are very complicated for other people, including her. so when I do something that can either be explained by me being a dumbass or an asshole, she assumes I am intentionally being an asshole because "he can't be that dumb"