getting little stabs of anxiety and attempting to burn them off through some mix of shaking, hyperventilating, long breaths, feeling the feelings, naming the feelings. it appears to be working but gosh i look forward to eventually not having to do this
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i apparently have had the magnesium i ordered for a month but thought it was something else lmao, experimenting with it a bit. it appears to be exacerbating the anxiety but i think that might be good actually? like the anxiety is readier to be handled? not sure, i really dk
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very weird flipping daily between “phew everything is basically fine” and “oh no what if everything is basically terrible” jeez
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sometimes there’s a lot of “energy” with no obvious conceptual “content” (no words or images or memories coming up, trying to name stuff doesn’t do much). i assume this means i need movement of some sort but not sure. anyone have more experience with this?
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contentless stuff is a huge part of my experience when meditating. doesn't ever imply anything in particular about what to do (there's no blanket correct action). mb try "hanging out with it", "gently shifting/nudging", "letting it be", "experimenting ways of interacting with it"
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hmmmmmmmmmhmhm neato