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i stopped doing it for several reasons; as i got more followers it felt less emotionally safe to do, i became genuinely less confident anyway whether fixating on the content made sense or was just a kind of performance, and i shifted to more indirection

if there's a spectrum where one end is tweeting "i cried about my parents today" and the other end is producing some kind of work of art that expresses how you feel about your parents i have been trying to move like 5% towards the art end of the spectrum

the art metabolizes the thing and makes it more accessible for other people to relate. it's also harder to read as a ploy for sympathy which is how i'm often misread if i talk about the thing too directly

in retrospect when i talk about the thing directly + publicly i'm trying to satisfy too many conflicting desires at once: i both want to articulate stuff other people probably also feel and have trouble articulating, *and also* want my friends to know what's going on for me

so i've increasingly spun off the more personal details to other more private places that feel safer. it would be locked alt except actually i use a slack that sort of functions as a giant group chat, highly recommend something like this btw