the park is part of my new exciting feels strategy where i drive a car to a mostly isolated parking lot so i can scream real loud. incredibly refreshing experience. released a lot of tension, feeling better than i have in months
although "screaming" is not a very complete description of what i was doing, it's mixed in with crying and shaking and verbalizing and the mix was important. at one point i jogged a bit even
wasn't super clear about this but tbc i was screaming in the car for extra sound isolation. just incredible. actually i made a lot of other weird noises too. chanting and blubbering and idek. really just let loose for a second there