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QC (in Berlin 7/29-???)
@QiaochuYuan
i tried imagining my ideal future and it was "i'm on the beach and all my ex-girlfriends love me again" which... 🤔
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Just met husband’s mom. In the last few months she lost 30lbs, practiced yoga daily without a single miss, quit carbs, started learning English, and is now on her way to quitting smoking. Her secret? Every day on commute she imagines her ideal future in vivid detail.
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QC (in Berlin 7/29-???)
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idk like i actually don't know how to relate to this. a lot of the things i want seem like 1) they would be socially destructive for me to actually try to get and 2) seem symbolic of other stuff / pretty much about psychodrama anyway
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QC (in Berlin 7/29-???)
@QiaochuYuan
the period in my life where i went after what i wanted most directly ended up revealing a lot of deep confusions in those wants and i haven't figured out what to do with that. specifically: when will my wants be "good enough" to directly object-level pursue
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QC (in Berlin 7/29-???)
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i think it was right and good of me to slow down and be like "wtf is going on" and try to untangle some of those confusions but it's been years and meanwhile i've like banned myself from going after what i want which...? maybe time to stop doing that a bit??? idk man
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QC (in Berlin 7/29-???)
@QiaochuYuan
like look. some people follow their dreams all the way to starting a cult and doing incredible amounts of damage to a bunch of other people and it matters to me that i don't fuck up that badly
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QC (in Berlin 7/29-???)
@QiaochuYuan
this is a live and fresh confusion for me, i literally have zero answers, i am just asking the universe "which things are acceptable to want, which things are acceptable to try to get" because i literally do not know
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