okay so i'd like to go on more walks but part of the problem is at the beginning of the walk i always notice everything i don't like about being in my body. lately it's been feeling fat :/
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which idk how much of that is about fat per se as opposed to bloating from eating food that's bad for me. when i eat better food i feel less bloaty and this comes up less. the body is a mystery to me still
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also i haven't lifted in way too long my god
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went for a short walk and tried to relax my long-established habit of automatically sucking my stomach in. think it went okay
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That was implanted by tradition in my mom and in me thereafter, trying still to go over it
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few weeks ago doing body scans for hours wandering I was like something weird is going on, eventually narrowed into a dense block in my gut and I was like what’s that. I let go of it and my gut went flying out and my body felt so much better. I think I’ve been doing it forever
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I workout pretty often and I think it has the downsides of making me used to strong tensing most of my body’s muscles on purpose. Now when I tense them lightly on accident I think I don’t notice as much because it’s not strong compared to working out
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