Like, does it become overwhelming / disgusting to let yourself savor the moment-to-moment embodied experience of...
- a really lush texture, maybe soft / fuzzy / satin, or flower petal
- a fragrance you enjoy
- a resonant song on good headphones / speakers
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yes. every sensation is overwhelming when i tune into it
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Oho! This sounds like a very useful discovery!
What do you want to do, in relation with that experience?
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never feel any sensations ever :[
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Hmm... ever tried one o' them floaty tanks?
(Not as a solution - more like, when you have minimal sensory input, how's that for you?)
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twice. they’re too warm :/
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Unsatisfactory!
(Don't think I want to jump straight into cessation vs. nonrenunciate Buddhism, because I've got another thought coming up - but open to it)
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Hrrrm. Bruh is it possible that you have like...
Like if people w/o much trauma, might have like a smooth distribution of sensation intensity (probably a power law dist?)
What if you had 2 opposing forces, that ended up making like... an emotional geyser?
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hmm if i had to make up a story it would be like... i’ve dissociated from strong sensations generally for so long that my system just hasn’t learned which ones are safe or unsafe to experience so it perceived them all as threats by default
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Have you ever tried somatic therapy? It keeps coming to mind for me reading this thread. There's this development of feeling sensations in your body, but the sensations are subtle rather than overwhelming.
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i have not! i read the beginning of one of peter levine’s books and really liked it but actually doing e.g. somatic experiencing has been scary
ya. the thing is, when you do it with a real live trained person, they are there to keep you from doing too much Technique at yourself
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sounds helpful 😅