Hmmmmm
Do you get a "flinch away" response from leaning into other kinds of pleasant sensation, besides taste?
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Like, does it become overwhelming / disgusting to let yourself savor the moment-to-moment embodied experience of...
- a really lush texture, maybe soft / fuzzy / satin, or flower petal
- a fragrance you enjoy
- a resonant song on good headphones / speakers
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yes. every sensation is overwhelming when i tune into it
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Oho! This sounds like a very useful discovery!
What do you want to do, in relation with that experience?
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never feel any sensations ever :[
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Hmm... ever tried one o' them floaty tanks?
(Not as a solution - more like, when you have minimal sensory input, how's that for you?)
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twice. they’re too warm :/
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Unsatisfactory!
(Don't think I want to jump straight into cessation vs. nonrenunciate Buddhism, because I've got another thought coming up - but open to it)
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Hrrrm. Bruh is it possible that you have like...
Like if people w/o much trauma, might have like a smooth distribution of sensation intensity (probably a power law dist?)
What if you had 2 opposing forces, that ended up making like... an emotional geyser?
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If one part of you is constantly like, "NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE!"
You could either model it as a um... high pass filter (?), which removes all the small sensations and only BIG ONES get through
Or as a constant building up of FEELS and eventually FEELSPLOSION
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yeah it do be like this sometimes
This would fit with Bio-Emotive working for you, because it would overcome whatever's doing the resistance, resulting in FEELSPLOSION
(Also maybe SAD POIGNANT MUSIC as an intensifier?)
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