basically if you have suppressed your feelings you need to practice feeling them again. it’s like wiggling numb fingers or toes. I’m kinda surprised you’re asking these 101 questions, didn’t you make some breakthroughs with sobsquad and so on...?
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the breakthroughs were in different directions than this
or shallower layers than this idk
think i have old stuff to work through here
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I would say “how do you know you want” is the wrong question. My nephews want things and they don’t always know that they want them. Knowing and wanting are separate things
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like it might be like
“I want to go swimming!”
“How do you know you want to go swimming?”
“??? I... just want!”
reasoning, if there is any, is introduced after the fact. “Because.... because it is a hot day and I want to feel cold” - but he didn’t notice it was hot before
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reasoning is not the thing i’m asking about, it’s more like... i’m pretty sure it *feels like something* to want to go swimming, e.g. maybe if the kid pays attention to their experience they notice a sensation of being “pulled towards the water”
i’m asking about that
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the phenomenology of desire, not the logic
maybe this is a confusing question but i am coming from a background of having my wants deeply suppressed by my parents and they tend to hide under large piles of conditioning and suffering
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I think asking about phenomenology is still the wrong question. it’s maybe a little less wrong than asking about the logic, but it’s still “out of step”. you will always be lagging behind until you let the rhythm/spirit lead you. do you have any background in music, dance, sport?
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music. so you want to point to like improvising?
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yea so when you’re playing music have you ever experienced a rhythm or a melody wanting to flow through you?
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yeah, rhythm much more so than melody