zoom and netflix and twitter and whatever else have in some sense allowed us to partially plug into a crappy version of the matrix and it’s kinda better than nothing but i bet it’s driving everyone crazy in a million different ways
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i've been hesitant to talk about this for awhile. it's seemed like we're kinda pretending that things are more normal than they are and i didn't want to burst the bubble? appreciate the conversation i had about this with , helped me feel saner
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i've been playing around with the phrases "emotional anorexia" and "emotional scurvy" to describe what i was feeling in december
like i was starving myself of trace nutrients and the more i starved myself the less i wanted them
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the offer i made recently to RT requests for help etc. was not just for you guys, a lot of it was for me. i am starving for meaningful action right now and helping follows out is one of the more meaningful things i can do that i can see
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i've been wondering if sufficiently bad lockdown can convince deep unconscious parts of you that maybe other people don't really exist or the world doesn't really exist or things like that. sounds like some of the experiences y'all are reporting might be consistent with that
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it do be like that sometimes 😬
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oh i like this!
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Replying to @QiaochuYuan and @discomfrtble
one thing that has really helped me and some of my friends is making dedicated parts of a call where we kvetch, vulnerably complain about wats happening in our internal world. then the complaints enters the external world and mixes w/our friends kvetching. feels holy and intimate
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thanks for your responses everyone. in the interest of providing something approaching a concrete way forward, i've been feeling surprisingly better 1) crying a week or two ago and 2) more recently making a bunch of small movements to break out of freeze
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(really i did not expect the crying to help much this time but that's where all the good tweets came from)
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i'll repeat the thread from the other day too: at least one person mentioned feeling like they weren't "really" suffering and like... this is real suffering! this situation is so so so fucked up even if you aren't in physical danger
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maybe also worth saying explicitly: lockdown is really insanely fucked up. i have been suffering and going crazy and probably you have too. it is not remotely normal. please keep that in mind when you're wondering why everything seems so bad or you have so little energy
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absolutely massive stockpile of psychological energy building up and this is where it's going so far
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Pandemic Day 25: I made bread :)
Day 95: I sure do miss my friends
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Day 310: The White House appears to be under the control of a shirtless man in a Viking helmet
Day 330: Reddit’s coordinated attack on Wall Street is going as planned