feeling dreadful but at least I can go to school in bed 🛌
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I am obv being too hard on myself wrt feelin' low
I'm trying to recover from the worst breakup of my whole life (which is bizarre, idk why I'm more messed up this time than I've ever been before but alas), adjust to being in law school again, confront tons of career uncertainty.
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I'm actively working on my relationship w my parents which has been so vulnerable just mentioning it puts a big lump in my throat, I'm unravelling all this fear of intimacy and commitment in my relationship w my bf which is v v hard on my ego
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on top of that I've completely given up dating and flirting which used to be a huge source of fun and validation and support and I've also cut down on smoking weed as much as I can physically handle (ie w/o causing distressing levels of appetite loss and insomnia)
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when I give myself more of my context it becomes really easy to see why I might feel like a giant walking void of horror and at least feeling less confused about being that giant walking void of horror frees up some space for deeper breathing and self-soothing
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